Don’t Despise the Day of Small Beginnings: My Circumstances

I have to admit that the last few weeks have been hard on me. I was given a pretty clear vision from God as to the direction of my future, or at least I thought I was, and then almost immediately I began facing a lot of opposition and it was bringing me down. I felt hit from every side. I started asking for answers, for timelines, for confirmation, and it didn’t seem like any answers were coming. I felt alone and lost because of this. Limbo is a hard place to live.

At last, I did start noticing some ways God was communicating to me about my circumstances. The first was probably in Ecclesiastes, not somewhere I would usually look for direction, to be honest. The men’s Bible study I started has been working through a book called “Better” that covers life through the eyes of Ecclesiastes. When I was at a particularly low point, I happened to open up the week’s reading for Bible study and what I read spoke to me directly.

“Time plays an important role in our life stories. Even right now you might feel frustrated because the current season of your life has lasted too long— far longer than your script planned.”¹

I shared this with a friend who’s been a huge encouragement during this time of uncertainty and then I read on,

“[The author of Ecclesiastes]sees life as a series of events, often conflicting, sometimes painful, sometimes bringing joy, and sometimes completely and utterly out of our control. How do we approach life when it throws so many conflicting seasons at us? How do we make the best use of the time we have?”²

That was something I needed to read and the subsequent talk the men and I had over breakfast the next morning was great at lifting me up as well.

I think the next thing I came across was a blog post by a church planter about the time he quit his job to gain better training for ministry. D. A. Horton faced a tough situation having to provide for his family but having to follow God’s call in obedience. His wife reminded him of Zechariah 4:10, not to despise humble beginnings and to trust God for provision of greater things. That’s where I’m at. I’m in a rebuilding season right now. In fact, that’s what I’m calling it. The Rebuild Season.

Later, my pastor spoke on Daniel 2 and I was reminded that the sovereign Lord of all was with me in the opposition I was facing. He’s with me through it all. I knew that, but I needed to know it again. Daniel’s story was a great way of pointing me to the truth.

Today it was Habakkuk (What is it with all of the OT prophets speaking to me?) that spoke to my circumstances. I felt peace as I read, “For the vision awaits its appointed time,” and “If it seems slow, wait for it. It will surely come; it will not delay.” (Habakkuk 2:3) I know none of these things in Habakkuk or Zechariah or Daniel are specific promises made to me and that the original meaning behind the promises was pretty specific to the people back then, but the Lord impressed upon my spirit to take these as His word for me at this time.

Habakkuk closes with,

“Though the fig tree should not blossom,

nor fruit be on the vines,

the produce of the olive fail

and the fields yield no food,

the flock be cut off from the fold

and there be no herd in the stalls,

yet I will rejoice in the Lord;

I will take joy in the God of my salvation.

God, the Lord, is my strength;

he makes my feet like the deer’s;

he makes me tread on my high places.”

(Habakkuk 3:17-19 ESV)

Amen. I will trust in Him during this period of not knowing exactly when things are going to happen, but having been given vision as to the ultimate direction. The reason I share this is because there are probably some of you who are in similar circumstances. Maybe it’s not quite the same thing, but still these promises of God might speak to you as they have been me over these past few weeks. Take account of the things the Lord’s already done for you and consider the things I’ve just talked about. Prayerfully consider your next move. I’d love to hear from you about your experiences. Just leave a comment down below and I’ll be sure to read it. Who knows; someone else may even benefit from your story.


¹ Chaddick, Tim; Borlase, Craig (2013-09-01). Better: How Jesus Satisfies the Search for Meaning (Kindle Locations 910-912). David C. Cook. Kindle Edition.

² Chaddick, Tim; Borlase, Craig (2013-09-01). Better: How Jesus Satisfies the Search for Meaning (Kindle Locations 927-929). David C. Cook. Kindle Edition.

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